Ugh
It's been a bad day. I woke up at 9:30 thinking that it was 10:30 and that my alarm was going off. Instead, it was one of my tutees, reminding me that we were supposed to meet from 9:30 to 11:30. I made it over by 10 and then went on struggling to explain stokes' theorem. It was frustrating because I felt that I was explaining it in a way that had worked previously but didn't seem to be cutting it any more. Then we went over some practice problems. She was getting very agitated for some reason. I couldn't do the last one she presented and told her I would get back to her on it. At that point, about 11:15, she told me that we were done. This was perfectly fine until it dawned on me that she was furiously transcribing the problems I'd been going through onto another sheet of paper, because they were her homework due in 15 minutes. As tutors we're absolutely not allowed to show tutees how to do their actual hw problems, just very similar ones. She also knew this when she asked me to show how to do them. I was pretty angry, and I think it's soured my mood for the rest of the day as a result. I'm not really sure how to react. It's also frustrating because of how many hours before break I spent tutoring her and how clear it is that she did absolutely nothing for math at any point over break.

Then again, I would be a hypocrite to say that. because I have done nothing. I am at a complete stasis. I am inert. I am very busy and yet doing nothing. I do nothing that I actually would enjoy doing. even when I procrastinate I kill time in the dumbest ways possible. this is not a happy state of existence. I'm not sure what to do about it.

even the box of frisbees I've ordered isn't cheering me up, because now I have 22 more frisbees to sell to folks and I don't know how that's going to happen. I'm sure it will sooner or later. I really like all of the frisbees though. I wish I could keep them all.